Illustractions Release Party & Art Show

One of my goals this year has been to submit my work to zines, so in March I came across a call for a new Los Angeles based zine called Illustractions and decided to submit a few pieces for consideration. Ari got back to me pretty quickly to tell me that one of my pages was to be included, which I was over the moon about! A few weeks later I had an email with an update on the zine and that there was to be a release party for the zine in May at Junior High in Hollywood. I started to get nervous about it, but I accepted the invitation and decided I would just go for it; you have to take these opportunities, right? I also agreed to do some quick portraits of the people at the event – eek!

The show was last night and I’m so glad I went! I was super nervous the whole time, but it was pretty amazing to see my art on the wall and in a zine, to meet some new people, and enjoy a night of stand-up comedy, music, and art. Here are some photos from the show:

Me with the zine and my art!

The wall of portraits I made with two other artists

Junior High – such an awesome art space!

I really liked this

Unfortunately it doesn’t seem like the zine is available to buy online, I think they were just given out for free across Los Angeles, but it it was really fun to be involved in!

Pushing Through the Fear (Revisited)

In January I published a blog post called Pushing Through the Fear, which was all about how in 2016 I would be pushing myself out of my comfort zone and start believing in myself and what I create:

For as long as I can remember, I’ve had a problem with “putting myself out there”. Not only am I an introvert, I am a fairly shy introvert. I’m nowhere near as shy as I used to be, but still; I don’t enjoy being the center of attention, I don’t know how to take a compliment, and I often worry that, when I do try to put myself out there, I’m coming across as pushy or thinking too much of myself. This isn’t exactly helpful when you want to share creative projects and get involved in a community.

I have many conversations with my husband about what makes someone an artist, since he calls me one and I completely avoid using that word to describe myself. He thinks that you don’t need formal training or an exhibit at a prestigious gallery; anyone who creates things is an artist. I obviously have a different opinion, although only when it comes to myself it seems.

Recently I’ve been thinking more about this avoidance and how rationalizing “not being an artist” holds me back. I use it to talk myself out of sharing or submitting work, making things for people, or getting involved with other artists. I fear putting myself out there and that my work isn’t good enough, so it’s easier to tell myself that I’m not a “real artist” rather than risk whatever it is I think is going to happen if I try.

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